i am who i am

“he’s stupid, he’s trouble, he’s a loser.”

“there’s nothing that you can do to change it.”

“it’s a basic genetic.”

huh..

am i stupid?

am i a loser?

urrghh...


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somebody: why are you doing this?

me: doing what?

somebody: you came here to study dude. not wasting your time doing nothing..

me: sigh..

somebody: you got problem? seems like your soul is not here..

me: what??

somebody: you know..hanging around, play ball, guitar...that kind of stuff

me: huh..because this is who i am

somebody: what??

me: you don't get it, do you? people like you will never get it..

somebody: people like me?

me: yeah.people like you... academic is not my thing. okay? i want to do something instead of stay in my room and read books.. it is so not me..i like to play ball, do activities, help people.. maybe i even pretty good at those things.. i wanna get my own life...

somebody: but, sometimes we just got to go on with life. maybe this is your place, your destiny..

me: save your inspirational speeches for someone who really need it..i know who i am..i'm a loser, i'm trouble, i'm stupid..it's a basic genetic.can't help it...sorry dude. i'm stuck here. i regret on my own decision...


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what the hell am i doing here?

damn! this is not my place..

i'm not belong here

but this is my decision...

i'm going to fix this

i'll try everything i could to get out from here

sorry mom, dad..

i didn't mean to hurt you

i should listen to you from the beginning..sigh...